2018 | HIV Support Community Forum

Just to have someone to talk with

Just to have someone to talk with. One of the first steps towards healing is the knowledge that you are not alone. I know that this sounds like a cliche, and it is, but in many cases, it works. Especially if you and whomsoever have the same empathy.

In my case, for example, I know that millions of people are infected with the same virus. I am also infected with it. Does this knowledge help me to sleep restfully? No, it does not. Does the awareness of millions of lives in turbulence cause me to feel better about my condition? No.

Being jostled on every side by the crush of the millions is not a definition of completeness. Feeling all alone at the same time is also not completeness. Who will talk to me because I become even more depressed when I talk to myself.

Do the annoying little flying bugs that land upon me and bite me understand anything at all about me? Can these bugs appreciate how much they torment me? Do they have empathy for the uncomfortable predicament that they place me in?

I joined a group of people. I am not truly part of this group because I do nothing within it. My mind is with them, but my behavior is absent-minded. I signed up to be a member of this group of people. Then, I promptly faded away into the murky recess of my self-assigned cubbyhole.

The silent can’t be heard, and the mute can’t be applauded. Join, become interactive, throw your thoughts out to be considered. No one is asking you of anything except yourself. Your involvement is important. Your contribution may be the incentive that changes a person’s life.

She looked at me, and I looked back at her. Now what? Let no one be allowed to say that a Duck-billed platypus has outdone me. I will be an active participant in this group because I joined this group of people of my own volition.

Now, what group of people am I referring to? Those enchanting group of people of the Bestowing Life family (Hiveaid.org and the adorable people who want to understand their night dreams. They do this by sharing them with one another at DreamWhack of course.

Just to have someone to talk with. The purpose of these websites is to allow people to bond and communicate. Use them and enjoy them.

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A Balancing Fact

RecentPosts / Herbert Hilliard

A Balancing Fact. What is the measure of death? The physically animated can be as dead as Johnny come lately mentally and spiritually. The death of the heart is far more agonizing than the total absence of conscious awareness. The soul’s demise is also more painful than losing physical vitality. This being the case, what should the lifeless of mind and spirit fear about their physical demise.

Total oblivion is a fearful concept. We ponder it until we, who are top-side, realize that collapse formed our conception. We also understand that we wallow in fleetingness. The brief is short. It becomes even briefer for those of us who are least in mind and spirit. The tiniest drop makes the biggest splash and the pigeon chokes the mule. Who is to say which emptiness is greater, the light or the shadow that produces the light.

In a day that came and in a moment that went nothing happened. The mind is in shut-down mode, and the eyes are open. Tiny unseen bugs are biting the heck out of me and driving me insane. The smallest of the spiders are the ones that will send you to the coffin. What are the standards to place on life and what gauges need to be applied to evaluate death?

Being alive is the only reality that the living knows. The thought of ceasing to be alive is an unknown reality. Death is not like being asleep. In sleep, we usually dream. We may not remember what we have dreamed in our sleep. The living covets death but is fearful of the unknown. The dead walk in an animated body and will not die.

Ten tongues sing the same song, and one fell from the bottom of the non-stepped stepladder. And who should fear death when death is the natural state of the living? Is there anyone who is alive? What do we have to compare that which we call life against? The orbit is not an orbit until it makes an orbit and who is to say what an orbit is.

Losing a loved one to death is sad and losing yourself in yourself is even worse. Misery and confusion simply adore life, and there are no feelings of pain when there is no mind processing it. The ant climbed to the top of the mountain, and the hill across the street collapsed for no reason.

In death, there is, well who knows. In life, there is the constant presence of death breathing down your nose. In the morning, there will be no morning. Tomorrow was here yesterday. Yesterday will not come in the morning. Twenty tons of horse manure equals a single fleeting thought during a day.

And so, balancing life requires placing death within its proper hierarchy. This placement is within the gaping hole that troubles the mind about the unknown. Goodbye death, referred to as life, and hello life, referred to as death.

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Getting Older with HIV

RecentPosts / Herbert Hilliard

Getting older with HIV. Many researchers are proposing a possible cure for HIV by 2020. This is remarkable since HIV and AIDS is a Biogenetics weapon created by the United States. This weapon was developed for the expressed purpose of killing certain population groups and others that are considered undesirables.

As with any attack weapon, a defense weapon is also part of the research and development process. In the case of a biological agent, an antiviral is developed. This occurs before any steps are taken for active deployment.

The development of an antiviral (cure) for HIV and AIDS was a natural part of research and development. This process was like how weapons systems are developed. Greed is a reason why HIV and AIDS is still around. There is also a genuine wish to greatly reduce the Earth’s human population. These are the only reasons why HIV and AIDS persist. Several other diseases have been created or accelerated for money and human reduction.

Many dastardly things are being deliberately and systematically done to all of us. These actions also affect the only bio-system that humans and the Earth’s many other life forms can inhabit. This is done in various ways and by various means simply for money and power.

If we stay docile, we face genetic alteration into half human beasts and mechanical mechanisms. We will be sheered like sheep by those who view us as just money in their pockets. To them, we are mud puddles to be manipulated and controlled, and mindless laborers.

It is good to be optimistic. Still, I personally do not expect the cure for HIV and AIDS to be released any time soon. This is due to the medical and pharmaceutical industries or the U.S government.

There are natural cures for the HIV and AIDS virus being promoted over the Internet. They are available if you are brave enough to try them. Their sources are difficult to confirm.

If you are 50 years old or more and have HIV, this Washington Post article may offer some insights. Even so, it gives information about aging and living with HIV.

HIV-infected people are living for years, but age-related diseases set in early

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Why Do We Fear Death?

RecentPosts / Herbert Hilliard

Why Do We Fear Death? We fear death for the most obvious reason. An animated and conscious body is the only existence that we know. The thought of being completely inanimate and unconscious is a disturbing idea for most of us.

Most human beings believe, feel, and hope for more to existence than the physical realm. This belief provides them with uneasy comfort about the inevitability of physical death. Many people believe that energy theoretically can’t be destroyed. They think that when we die, our power source transitions into a different reality of being.

I have personally seen a small but very bright orb of light. It suddenly appeared, then moved rapidly along the ceiling. It vanished into the wall at the other end of the house. This occurred at the death of two of my close family members.

I felt the presence of my loved ones in the orbs of light. I know that they are alive in a purer form without any physical constraints. I know this. Yet, I have no way of proving it. I only saw the orbs shortly after their deaths. I have not received any further communications from either one of them. I saw and sensed only two people. They were my mother and one grandfather. Why didn’t I see anyone else who has died in my family?

To claim knowledge that the energy animating our physical body continues unchanged is to assert belief based on observed evidence. This energy remains after the material body ceases to work. This evidence is seen with the eyes and felt in the mind.

Of course, that visual and sensed evidence was only as valid as my state of mind at that time. It can’t be readily used as proof. The energy that animates our bodies during life is more than a switch that is turned off. It ceases to radiate power when its housing shuts down.

I remember all the people I have known who have died before me. As I look at the world around me, my fear of death is somewhat abated. In the cosmic sense of things, a being aware of its mortality aligns with the material norm. All energy forms are conscious of their existence. Their main role is to keep and harmonize equilibrium.

We may exist in a compact conscious state for a short time after physical death. This can be in the form of an energy orb. Still, at some point, we become intermingled and disbursed. We are integrated with billions of other energy frequencies. It is doubtful that our united consciousnesses will form a super-consciousness of unlimited power. More than likely, they will only constitute dispersed subatomic particles in an enormous energy grid.

If I clear my mind by imagining myself in a deep sleep, I can equate that with death. Then, the actual state of being dead does not seem so foreboding. It isn’t frightening. In darkness there is peace. In the abode of the dead, there is tranquility and safety.

In life, there are only the ominous spectra of impending demise. This is fueled by the fear of the unknown. It is also driven by the dread of a reality that you have never experienced before.

We only know this one reality called life. It is natural to be apprehensive about something we have never experienced. When I think of all the people who have lived before me. I realize their birth and death caused no ripple in the cosmic continuum. Their existence left no impact on the universe’s fabric. There was no fluctuation. I am compelled to consider that death is the norm. Life is an aberration of that norm.

Death is the cosmic norm. So, I should not be fearful of it. Death is nothing more than my natural state of being. We humans have a small window of time to nourish this fleeting domain called life. When we are young, we do not fully appreciate it. When we have grown old and ugly, we can’t fully enjoy it.

So why do we fear death? A charged particle wants to keep its charge. An interwoven array of charged particles wants to keep its ideal balance. Millions of human and natural frequencies pass through the carbon-based carcass. They constantly cause mental and physical illnesses. They also lead to aging, deformities, and eventually death.

The sublime is awakened from the quiet serenity of death. It enters the instability of consciousness and its turmoil. It forgets its former state. It becomes anxious about what it has forgotten. We fear death because life is the only reality that we know. Yet, death is our natural state of existence. We should never fear it.

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