Nine and a Half Years of Fleeting Life Wasted started in early 1987. A Lack of Knowledge led to becoming hooked on crack cocaine. From the start of my addiction, I knew that the consequences of my habit would be severe.
My life would be totally subjugated to it. There would be wreckage of all my hopes and dreams. My computer hardware career would be destroyed. Everything else conducive to a wholesome and fruitful life would also be demolished.
I allowed the weakness of my mind to transform me into a slave in bondage to my own desires. I knew there was hope for me. Getting my act together required total abstinence from my drug of choice.
Now, I felt that I was looking at myself from a remote place that I once inhabited. Everything was surreal and lacking any sense of genuineness as I muddled along in the grip of my drug craving. I cried. I prayed for the strength to escape the ghastly predicament I had foolishly placed myself within. I was ashamed of myself. I kept as far away from my family as possible. I did not want them to see what I had done to myself.
At this early stage in my addiction, there was a faint ray of hope. I believed I would strap my groans and get it back together. I had the wish to do so. During the next year of 1987, this tiny ray of hope ended. I received a death blow. I was told that I was HIV positive. I was informed of this diagnosis at a blood bank. I frequented it to get funds to support my habit. On that day, I not find work.
Needless to say, this news was like being shot in the head with a cannon. At this time, in the middle eighties, most people thought that a person with HIV had six months to live. Some believed they had a year at most. I believed what I was hearing about my illness and based on that information I utterly gave up on life.
What was the point in being drug-free when I only had six months to a year at most to live? I isolated myself even when people were all around me. I anticipated becoming very sick and dying miserably with every cold.
I waited for the moment of my demise for nine and a half years. I was living in the wasteland of a drug-controlled life. With every cold, I prepared myself for the coffin. This was the consequence of my scourge that I understood. I placed my confidence in the wisdom of mortals. I wallowed in my death garment. I went about making money to support my drug habit.
Now my cries and my prayers were two-fold. At that time, I was a believer, and I prayed to gain my freedom from drug addiction. I also prayed that this wicked plague is taken away from me. Nine and a half years were taken by drug use. They shattered an already brief moment to experience physical life. I placed my confidence upon the carbon-based. I did not cement my cries and prayers with celestial faith.
For nine and a half years, I lived as a vagabond. I was a vagrant in my disease-infected body. I drifted in my loathsome mind. I wandered as a lifeless spirit because of my lack of knowledge.
This is not an epitaphic discourse about physical existence and spiritual death. It is so laughable that a fool and their aspirations are quickly disjointed. This happens when they place all their assurances on maggot food, like they are. They should look towards the true knowledge base that surpasses the breath and makes void the shovel.
For nine and a half years, the count is finished. The hours are a total waste because a little knowledge is a grand destroyer. If the knowledge that one does have is not seasoned with wisdom, time becomes a looter. This only happens if one surrenders and does not stand up to fight against the odds and the general consensus.
The Anti-Aging Power of Thought: Using Your Thinking. I am not a Bible thumper. Yet, there is a certain verse in the Bible that I have been considering lately. It reads, “Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle’s” (Psalms:102:5). What is this verse saying that I should take to heart?
The “Who” in this verse, is, of course, God. The word “mouth” in this verse can be seen as a reference to the mind. It refers to the way that we rationalize and reason. It also refers to our thoughts. “good things,” “youth,” and, “renewed,” should be self-explanatory. The word “eagle’s,” in this verse likely refers to flight. It symbolizes a free spirit, soaring and unencumbered.
Now that I have a few basic definitions of certain words in this verse, I can work with them. I can start deducing insights from this verse. These insights should be put to best practices. My thinking influences my temperament and disposition at any given moment. What comes out of my mouth is a product of my thinking. My thinking also has an influence on the way that I physically feel (my health).
What does all this mean? How can I use this to combat the appearance of aging? It disquiets me when I see my reflection looking old and ugly in the mirror. Mirror, mirror on the wall, gosh darn it.
This could mean that I have the cognitive ability to manage my aging processes. Not that I can think myself back to youth or stall the aging processes. There comes a point in everyone’s life, if they live long enough. At this point, becoming old and ugly is a given. There is nothing that can be done about this, except somehow learning to comfortably live with it. Many factors interact with each other to produce physical aging.
Many of these factors are beyond our ability to control. Examples include the radiation of the Sun, even when we try to hide ourselves behind sealed shelters. Other factors are micro-organisms that live and breed on and within our dirt bodies. Additionally, our Solar System and our Galaxy move into different regions of the Universe, to name a few.
Nevertheless, if the way I perceive myself is unadulterated and wholesome, it will produce words of refreshment. It will bring renewal from my mouth. Many wrinkles, blotches, dark spots, and sagging skin come from stress and worry. The quantity of stress and worry within me affects my health directly. It also impacts my physical appearance. Some factors contribute to the processes of my aging that I can’t control. My thinking, though, is not among them.
Unproductive thought habits drain the electrical charges that sustain every cell in my body. As the energies of these cells are reduced, deformations start appearing in my physical appearance. They also affect the way that I feel. The consequences of this damaging thought habit are many. One consequence is wrinkles appearing prematurely. These wrinkles are exaggerated beyond what they would have been under natural aging conditions.
Some people who claim themselves to be in the know attribute sagging skin to gravity. Gravity may be a cause of sagging skin. Still, gravity is just a theory and does not really exist. The loss of collagen and elastic in the skin occurs as we age. These are two factors that result in sagging skin. How positive thinking can combat sagging skin is an experiment in progress. I will give you an update on the progress of this experiment in roughly one hundred and ten years. Please stay tuned.
“Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle’s” (Psalms: 102:5). “Mouth”, a tool used for broadcasting my thoughts among other things. “Good things”, wholesome and uplifting things and personality traits given and received. “Youth is renewed”, reducing wrinkles, blotches, dark spots, and sagging skin and invigorating my mind by thinking positively. “like the eagle’s”, letting go of stress and worry as much as possible. I take a lighthearted view of myself. I think graciously and kindly of others. I accept the inevitable whether I like it or not. I soar in free flight even in the face of metamorphosing into a walking fossil.
Practicing this Bible verse daily might help me live better if you are of that temperament. It is also an inexpensive supplement to an anti-aging regimen that I have undertaken without success.
Thinking realistically and not relying on fantasy uplifts and inflates me. Even so, one day can feel like months of physical aging.
This happens if my thoughts are negative. This also happens if I am constantly in the company of negative acting and thinking people. Using this Bible verse to hide and improve the effects of aging may or may not work for me. But when I look at myself in the mirror, I think, why not give it a go.
The Prophecy of Nations. The end of the world is a cyclical process. It comes at a definite period. Mortals measure this with a humanly contrived concept.
In the immense, there is no such property as time. The immense is eternal. It has no limitations or restrictions that confine it.
The great has fallen upon the needy and they both have fallen into extreme hardships. One day is as another filled with enmity and malice one person for the other.
During the night things that creep and slither target both the guarded and the unguarded and relentlessly bites them.
Those who presume themselves to have vision come up with exact dates as to when calamity will befall the nations. But, exacting timing is unreliable. No one knows when they will be blotted out of existence.
The cyclical process of global cleansing is certain. It is as sure as the shining Sun. It is as reliable as the Moon in its orbit and our galaxy’s place within this Universe.
Count your fingers. Wiggle your toes, you who claim to be in the know. Your prophecies are dead as soon as you utter them.
The appointed time of global sanitization is in the NOW and the NOW, is right NOW! Let us peel our depraved heads against a stone wall and hide within caves and holes.
All our places of presumed safety will roll back. They will expose us to the whims of confusion and terror. The delights will shed us into bits.
And if two men are left alive, one will kill the other, gorge his flesh and use his skin for his attire.
And if two women are left alive, one will execute the other, munch away at her flesh and use her skin for her apparel.
The girl child weeps to her mother. Her mother has given herself to demons and strange spirits. She offers her child as a sacrifice to that which she can’t fully understand.
The boy child pleads to his father. The father has fooled himself into believing that he is the fullness of all that is. He offers his child to emptiness and ignorance.
Do not let our courage fail us. The end is drop-kicking us in a manner we have allowed. Our conceited minds have made a cosmic laughingstock of us.
We have exaggerated our self-importance. We have hoodwinked ourselves into believing the unbelievable. This includes the notion that we individually or collectively are the prime root of the Stars.
And if two women see a piece of cloth for wrapping themselves with, one will be murdered, and the moths will eat the cloth away from the other.
And if two men find a crumb of bread, one will not eat, and two will die of starvation.
The end will not come suddenly, as by surprise, but will loom with much trepidation in every mind. Feet will want to run but the earth will not let them move.
Those who profess that they do not believe in anything will fall to their knees and fracture them.
The cries of the anguished will become so loud that every sound will become muted by its volume.
And if two women are left alive, they will both drop dead in no uncertain length of time.
And if two men are left alive the worms will feast upon them at the same time.
This prophecy is certain, and it is finished. The moment of its coming is right NOW. It is not as mortals reckon time. It is the interval of NOW that the cosmos has given it.
Put on your boots. Toss them away. There is no escape for any of us who dwell within the Heavens and the Earth. Our appointed time to vanish from the cosmic records is NOW!
This precise and correct divination may seem gloomy and foreboding. Still, it is not entirely so. There may be a particle beam of good news embedded within it. The good news is that the cosmos will be purer. It will be a better place to inhabit without the mortals who now defile the planet Earth.
Developed in a lab. Let loose on the general public by blunder during its research and development processes. Silent and hideous in its relentless assaults. Its cure being one of its main requirements during research and development.
The cure not being released because it now makes billions of dollars a year for certain interest groups. HIV and AIDS were devised as a genetics weapon in the United States of America. The weapon reportedly escaped from the lab before it was officially cleared for deployment.
HIV and AIDS were designed for deployment against specific groups of people as part of a global plan to reduce the world’s human population by killing off those human elements that have been deemed undesirable by the ruling class.
HIV and AIDS do not get in the news as often as they used to. This is because they have now been classified as just one of the many human diseases. These diseases have been brought under control by medication.
Laboratories in all of the Western nations are hard at work. This is especially true in the United States of America. They are contriving the next generations of genetics weaponry. These are then placed into research and development to be deployed upon the public.
As with HIV and AIDS, some of these genetic weapons will inadvertently escape from the labs. This may happen before they are officially released for distribution. The designated groups of people have been appointed for devastation and annihilation.
Also, as with many research and development project. During calculated points throughout the project’s development, the latest stage, or version, of the genetic weapon will intentionally be released into the targeted populous. This release is to gauge its kill power and its sickness and infection properties. This is done as a means to improve its effectiveness before the final release of the agent to inflict mass human destruction on those specifically targeted groups, not withstanding collateral damage to non-targeted groups.
The research and development teams of these genetics weapons fully realized this. When they released certain strains of their experimental weapons upon the public, there would be collateral damage. This occurs regardless of how targeted that public is. Non-targeted groups of people would also be affected.
This fallout can be tolerated. It is acceptable as long as it stays at the lower social and economic levels of the non-targeted populous.
These developers are not part of a grand conspiracy. There is no vague group of people reclining on velvet seat cushions orchestrating things. This assault on humans is orchestrated by the planet Earth itself as a module of its cyclic mass extinction events.
Some elements of humans have misinterpreted the house cleaning messages of the Earth. They have distorted these messages into being an all-exclusive event. This targets only certain groups and types of people on the planet for total eradication from the human species.
People are dying and suffering. A lab in the United States of America became lax in its safeguards. It allowed certain strains of the HIV and AIDS virus to escape into the general public. Once these HIV and AIDS strains were no longer under controlled conditions, they began to mutate. They mutated when they came into contact with many different body types. Additionally, they changed with various human habits and temperaments.
The cure, or counter agent, faced rapid adjustments. It was developed in the lab as a necessity of this genetics weapon research and development process. This adjustment happened within months after new data began pouring in from different healthcare organizations and services. The research teams agreed to watch the HIV and AIDS virus at this stage. They chose not to release the counter agent.
Bundles of money began pouring in to find a cure for HIV and AIDS. There was also funding for its medications and treatments. The counter agent for the HIV and AIDS virus that had been developed in the labs was swiftly shelved. Temporal wealth has a much higher value attached to it than mere human life and suffering.
Developed in a lab. Let loose on the general public by blunder during its research and development processes. Silent and hideous in its relentless assaults. HIV and AIDS are now classified as a disease. This classification hides its real purpose. It is one of many biological weapons produced by the Western nations. These nations aim to drastically reduce the human population of the planet Earth.
The master race has an agenda. A spirit of pride diligently carries it out. Fear and hatred also fuel this agenda. The upper crust of Western society believe they are guided by the spirit of the Earth. This spirit moans for relief from the relentless screeches of many humans trampling its soils, sky, and waters. They are so full of it that they honestly believe the planet Earth respects people. They think it considers one fleabag better than another.
A cure for HIV and AIDS was developed in a lab in the United States of America. It existed then and still exists now. The United States of America could have easily blockaded Japan into surrender during World War II. Instead, it preferred to test the effects of its newly developed weapon on the general Japanese public. This was done to gauge its human kill power and its ecosystem and biological side effects.
The planet Earth will turn the so-called intelligence of current humans against them. In this way the Earth will be free of this variety of humanoid leeches for all time. The planet Earth has performed this head chopping procedure on disagreeable humanoids many times before. Throughout its long history, it has not spared disagreeable species from extinction. It will by no means spare this current species of repugnant humanoids from extinction.
The planet Earth is swept clean of its most recent humanoid birth. The Earth’s eco-system is rejuvenated of the contamination’s inflicted upon it by selfish and senseless creatures. All other living creatures of the planet Earth now have space. They can grow and enjoy their lives with the adulterated infestation of humanoids gone.
HIV and AIDS victims had long before taken a back seat. At that time, current humanoid types were still around. New strains of genetic weapons were released. These were tested for their effectiveness on the governmental turmoil they could cause. They also measured the human misery and revenue they could produce.
The day and the moment of the open mouth are closed. So-called intelligent life on planet Earth has intellectualized itself into oblivion and is completely forgotten as ever being in existence. In a moment, the planet Earth will give birth to another humanoid species. This species will be wiped out, just like all those that came before it.
This is not a reflection on the Earth. Don’t try to bad mouth this magnificent celestial beauty. All of its humanoid species are born with free will. They will act according to their own desires regardless of where the spirit of the Earth wants to move them.
The developers of HIV and AIDS chimpanzee and laughingstock themselves into believing that they are doing Western society a vital service by killing off the undesirable human elements. They give themselves Nobel prizes in physics, biology, and genetics. They also give hefty pats on the backs for their comedic achievements in understanding the cosmic cryptic. It is all said and it is all done.
HIV and AIDS victims of this focused and deliberate biological terrorism stratagem will not have the last laugh. The perpetrators are the would-be guardians of Western values and White womanhood. However, the planet Earth and its many other life forms will rejoice. They will have an ecstatic and euphoric time when this current species of humanoids gets their comeuppance.
Hah, Hah, Hah, a laugh a second. The planet Earth and all of its many other life forms celebrate death, renewal, and new birth. They send this current age of humanoids to their demise.
Just Another Day in the Morgue: Self-imposed isolation may be the precise thing to do for some personality types. People who sincerely want to do and say the proper things often face challenges. Their efforts end up being a washout. These individuals should avoid intimate interpersonal contact if at all possible. This is a sad existence for a person. Yet, it is profitable for others who find themselves in the path of idiocy.
Human beings are created and designed to be social creatures. Still, some folks confuse and spoil everything they contact. By and large, this disturbance is unintentional.
Most people do not want to be a source of turmoil and chaos. Still, some temperaments are like that. They lack certain social skills. These individuals are in the bondage of personal hang-ups that always produce the exact opposite of their intents.
If a person dislikes themselves, they will inevitably feel uncomfortable around other people. This discomfort is a byproduct of their self-loathing. They get a headache and become nervous when the prospect of being around other people is imminent. They hate feeling this way. They make a personal resolution to adjust their way of thinking. This effort is all to no avail as soon as they step out of the door. So how does a person go about liking themselves?
One way that a person can start to release themselves from the self-hatred mode is by killing themselves. The way that a person thinks of themselves must be horrifically slaughtered from their self-awareness. This thinking renovation may be hard to accomplish when one looks at oneself in the mirror because the reflection looking back at them is the same. Everyone talks about positive thinking but this approach only goes so far in thought invigorating.
Thoughts are electrical pulses that can be charged and discharged. Negative thoughts are the opposite charge of positive thoughts. Both negative and positive thoughts (electrical charges) carry out a balancing act in the makeup of the total person.
When one changes their way of thinking about themselves, they remove inhibitions to social interaction and mental stability. This increases the electrical charge in their brain. It opens blocked channels and cleanses the ones that are already in use.
Living in the servitude of self is comparable to living in a state of death. Everything is based on what the self-absorbed thinks and feels. They despise themselves. As a result, everything and everyone else is viewed from that foundation of self-scorn. They have wedged themselves into that foundation. For some people, the only way out of this predicament is through a brain transplant.
For others, the way out of this bondage of self is through self-acceptance. It also involves placing the concerns of others ahead of theirs. One must use creative discernment and common sense when dealing with other people. This helps avoid falling into the trap of utter nonsense. There are risks that come with exposure to all things.
Isolation imposed by oneself may be appropriate. This occurs when a person consistently causes harm to others, either by design or intentionally, upon making contact. It’s alright. Physical life lasts only a day and a night, then it’s over and done with. The old were young only a moment ago. The once healthy now contend with an overactive bladder and an enlarged prostate.
One should promptly break the mirror when they look at themselves in it. It is better to call it a day. Positive thinking will not change what is looking back at them. If you believe that you are unique in your terrors, take a trip outside of yourself for a moment. Look at the world around you. When you do this, you will find stark evidence. It confirms that the world does not revolve around you. Compared to many others, your grief is a joy ride.
The days are moving faster than the calendar can count. Soon one will have nothing to look back on. They have lived their lives in a vacuum-packed seal. Some have done and said things to others. For them, the emptiness and loneliness of quarantine is a fit punishment. They may look at the walls and feel sorrow for themselves. Yet, justice is being served on them. They should make up their minds to live in peace with seclusion.
And why waste your time talking to yourself? Do you really think that even you want to hear your weeping and moaning? And you certainly do not want to hear yourself belittling other people. You are already in the pit of self-degradation. Why do you want to dig yourself deeper by mocking and criticizing others?
Welcome to the end of your world. Rejoice in it because you have pulled the sheets over your head. You have called it quits. No one else has caused you to separate and make yourself inaccessibility. You have chosen this way of living on your own volition. Dance and sing within the corridors of your loneliness. Don’t forget to sacrifice a burnt offering to the prince of living death. You worship this prince by your mindset.
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