The Horror of Denial

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The horror of denial is not only placing yourself at risk but also placing the health and wellbeing of others in jeopardy. If you know or suspect that you are HIV positive you should seek the treatments that you need to address the problem and above all, be mindful of the health of others. Even if you are diagnosed as being HIV positive and are not experiencing any ill effects, you should consider certain relational activities inappropriate if not employing a high level of security for the safety of the other person.

Disclaimer: This is not medical advice!

Denying your HIV status is not only harmful to yourself but also to others who may be exposed to the virus. If you have been diagnosed with HIV or think you may have been infected, you should seek medical care and start taking antiretroviral therapy (ART) as soon as possible. ART can reduce the amount of HIV in your blood and lower your risk of transmitting it to others. You should also practice safer sex by using condoms correctly every time you have sex and avoiding sharing injection drug equipment. If you are HIV-negative but at high risk of getting HIV, you can consider taking pre-exposure prophylaxis (PrEP), a daily pill that can prevent HIV infection. By taking these steps, you can protect your own health and the health of others.

Avoiding the Truth

Denial can be a way of avoiding the truth or reality of something that makes us uncomfortable or anxious. But denial can also be dangerous, because it can make us act as if nothing is wrong when there is a serious problem. Denial can blind us to the risks we are taking or the opportunities we are missing. Denial can prevent us from learning from our mistakes or seeking help when we need it. Instead of living in denial, we should face our challenges with courage and honesty. We should accept our situation, deal with it, learn from it, and move on.

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(Original) There is a smile at the end of a tear and there is a realm of being much higher than hope. So, do well for yourself and for others regardless of current circumstances.

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(Bing AI) Life is full of ups and downs, but don’t let that discourage you. Even when you cry, you can find a reason to smile. And even when you lose hope, you can discover a higher purpose. That’s why you should always do your best for yourself and for others, no matter what challenges you face.


Self-deception: Regaining Sanity



Self-deception refers to the process of fooling oneself or deliberately deceiving oneself, often unconsciously, into believing something that is not true or distorting reality in order to protect one’s ego, maintain a particular belief, or avoid facing uncomfortable truths. It involves rationalizing or justifying one’s thoughts, emotions, or behaviors in ways that shield oneself from cognitive dissonance or negative emotions.

Self-deception can take various forms and can occur in different aspects of life, including personal relationships, self-image, beliefs, and decision-making processes. It can be influenced by biases, fears, desires, social pressures, and other psychological factors.

Here are a few examples of self-deception:

  1. Confirmation bias: Seeking and accepting information that supports one’s existing beliefs while ignoring or dismissing contradictory evidence.
  2. Rationalization: Creating logical-sounding explanations or justifications for one’s actions or beliefs to make them appear more acceptable or reasonable, even when they may not be.
  3. Denial: Refusing to acknowledge or accept certain truths or realities that are uncomfortable or threatening to one’s self-image or worldview.
  4. Wishful thinking: Convincing oneself that something desired or hoped for will come true, despite evidence or odds to the contrary.
  5. Projection: Attributing one’s own thoughts, feelings, or behaviors to others in order to avoid recognizing or addressing them within oneself.

It’s important to note that self-deception is a complex psychological phenomenon and is not always intentional or consciously driven. Sometimes, individuals may genuinely believe in their self-deceptions, making it difficult to distinguish between intentional deception and genuine self-delusion.

Recognizing and confronting self-deception can be challenging, as it often involves a deep exploration of one’s own thoughts, emotions, and biases. Self-reflection, seeking feedback from others, and being open to different perspectives can help in uncovering and addressing self-deceptive patterns. Engaging in critical thinking, being aware of cognitive biases, and maintaining a willingness to challenge one’s own beliefs are also valuable tools to minimize the impact of self-deception.

Is self-deception harmful?

Self-deception can have both positive and negative consequences, depending on the context and extent to which it is practiced. While it may serve as a temporary coping mechanism or provide a sense of comfort, in the long run, self-deception can be harmful.

Here are some reasons why self-deception can be detrimental:

  1. Distorted perception of reality: Self-deception can lead to a distorted understanding of reality, as it involves denying or distorting information that contradicts one’s beliefs or desires. This can prevent individuals from making informed decisions and engaging with reality as it is, potentially leading to poor judgments and misguided actions.
  2. Impaired problem-solving and growth: By avoiding or denying uncomfortable truths, self-deception inhibits personal growth and problem-solving abilities. Facing and addressing challenges and acknowledging one’s weaknesses or mistakes is essential for learning, self-improvement, and adapting to new situations.
  3. Damaged relationships: Self-deception can strain relationships with others. If one consistently deceives oneself about one’s own behavior, it becomes difficult to recognize and take responsibility for the impact one’s actions have on others. This can lead to a breakdown in trust and hinder the development of healthy and authentic connections.
  4. Emotional and psychological consequences: Self-deception can contribute to internal conflicts and emotional distress. Maintaining contradictory beliefs or suppressing emotions can lead to cognitive dissonance, anxiety, and a lack of self-awareness. It can also impede the development of emotional intelligence and hinder effective communication and problem-solving skills.
  5. Missed opportunities for personal development: By avoiding uncomfortable truths, individuals may miss out on opportunities for personal growth, self-reflection, and self-improvement. Honest self-assessment is crucial for identifying areas that require attention and for pursuing personal goals and aspirations.

While self-deception may offer temporary relief or protection from discomfort, it can have long-term consequences that hinder personal development, strain relationships, and impede one’s ability to navigate the world effectively. Striving for self-awareness, critical thinking, and a willingness to confront uncomfortable truths can be important steps toward mitigating the harmful effects of self-deception.

Overcoming self-deception:

  1. Cultivate self-awareness: Developing self-awareness is essential for recognizing and acknowledging self-deceptive patterns. Regularly engage in introspection and self-reflection to understand your thoughts, emotions, biases, and motivations. Pay attention to inconsistencies between your beliefs, actions, and the reality of situations.
  2. Seek external feedback: Others can often provide valuable perspectives and insights that can help uncover self-deception. Seek feedback from trusted friends, family members, mentors, or therapists who can provide honest observations and challenge your assumptions.
  3. Challenge your beliefs and biases: Actively question and critically examine your beliefs, assumptions, and biases. Seek out alternative viewpoints and information that may contradict your existing beliefs. Engage in open-minded dialogue and consider the evidence objectively.
  4. Embrace discomfort: Overcoming self-deception requires facing uncomfortable truths and emotions. Embrace discomfort as an opportunity for growth and self-discovery. Be willing to confront difficult realities, acknowledge mistakes, and learn from them.
  5. Practice mindfulness: Cultivating mindfulness can help you become more present and aware of your thoughts, feelings, and behaviors. Mindfulness can help you notice self-deceptive patterns as they arise and allow you to respond consciously instead of reacting automatically.
  6. Develop critical thinking skills: Strengthen your ability to think critically and evaluate information objectively. Learn about logical fallacies, cognitive biases, and common thinking errors. By understanding these cognitive processes, you can better recognize when you are falling into self-deception and challenge your own reasoning.
  7. Seek professional help if needed: If self-deception is significantly impacting your life or relationships, consider seeking the assistance of a therapist or counselor. They can provide guidance, support, and techniques to help you overcome self-deceptive tendencies and develop healthier thought patterns.

Harmful examples of self-deception:

  1. Transgenderism
  2. The Ashkenazi cockazoids now occupying Canaan saying and believing that they are ancient Hebrews.
  3. The people now raving Kemet (which the Greeks called Egypt) saying that the old ones of the Black land are their ancestors.
  4. Melanated people wanting to be cockazoid
  5. Men walking around with their butts hanging out and thinking that immature conduct is manly.
  6. Being loud and behaving stupidly and thinking this type of behavior is something to be proud of.

Suggestion for a distorted perception of reality:

Remember, overcoming self-deception is an ongoing process that requires patience, self-compassion, and dedication. It may involve unlearning deeply ingrained beliefs and behaviors. By consistently practicing self-reflection, seeking truth, and challenging your assumptions, you can gradually reduce self-deception and foster personal growth and authenticity.

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Overcoming HIV-related anxiety

If you are living with HIV, you may sometimes feel isolated or alone. You may face stigma or discrimination from others who do not understand your condition. You may struggle with managing your health, your emotions, or your relationships. You are not alone. There are many people who share your experiences and challenges, and who can offer you support and encouragement. One way to connect with them is through an online support group.

An online support group is a forum where people affected by HIV can communicate with others in a similar situation. You can join an online support group from anywhere, at any time, as long as you have an internet connection and a device. You can choose to remain anonymous or create a profile with your photo and details. You can post questions, stories, or advice on various topics related to HIV, such as diagnosis, treatment, prevention, daily living, community resources, etc. You can also respond to other people’s posts or send them private messages. You can join public groups or request access to private ones. You can also start your own group if you have a specific interest or need.

Benefits of joining an online support group

There are many benefits of joining an online support group for people living with HIV. Some of them are:

– You can learn from others who have gone through similar experiences and challenges.
– You can get emotional support and validation from others who understand what you are going through.
– You can get practical advice and tips on how to cope with HIV and improve your quality of life.
– You can reduce your feelings of isolation and loneliness by connecting with others who care about you.
– You can increase your self-esteem and confidence by sharing your achievements and successes.
– You can contribute to the well-being of others by offering your support and encouragement.

There are many online support groups for people living with HIV that you can join for free. Here is our recommended one: Free discussion boards and membership for people living with HIV in the U.S. This The HIV/AIDS support group offers a space to connect with others who are learning to live HIV positive. Register Now!

HIV stigma


HIV (Human Immunodeficiency Virus) is a virus that attacks the immune system and can lead to AIDS (acquired immunodeficiency syndrome), a condition in which the immune system is severely weakened and unable to fight off infections and diseases. HIV is primarily spread through sexual contact, sharing needles or other injection equipment with an infected person, and from mother to child during pregnancy, childbirth, or breastfeeding.

HIV is not to be accepted as being a natural human deficiency. Although we are not sure where and how HIV originated there are indications that it was developed in a lab in California, United States as one of the U.S.A governments ongoing research projects into biological weapons, such as the recent outbreak of coronavirus (COVID-19).

Money is a hindrance to finding or releasing the cure for the Human Immunodeficiency Virus as various interests’ groups profit from this disease as they do from other diseases that could be cured. Regardless of the motives of others it is important to be aware of HIV and to take steps to protect yourself and others from the virus.

When the country first became conscious of the HIV virus in the 1980s the virus was publicized and classified as being a gay (homosexual) disease, this should indicate that unnatural sexual activity is dangerous and should be avoided regardless of current social trends as to what is acceptable behavior.

HIV stigma and discrimination can be harmful to people living with HIV and can prevent them from seeking care and treatment. It is important to challenge HIV stigma and promote understanding and acceptance of people living with HIV.

By being aware of HIV and taking steps to protect yourself and others, you can help prevent the spread of the virus and ensure that those living with HIV get the care and support they need.

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In Silence


HIV and AIDS do not make the news anymore, but it is still destroying lives in silence. No one should be content with human suffering in any form. We should always fight against it. We advance as a species by standing against human, animal, and ecological afflictions.

Let us not be swayed by the current trends but stand for that which is natural and right. We grow individually and collectively by uplifting ourselves from the mind and the passions of the depraved by elevating our conscious domain and awareness. Human-created suffering is not natural and must not be the accepted norm.

The entire world has recently experienced the horrors of a laboratory-created illness that has negatively changed our lives. There is little doubt that HIV, which causes AIDS, is a biological weapon created by the United States. HIV was an experimental project using homosexuals and criminals as the subjects. These subjects were this biological weapon’s operational targets upon deployment.

Just as recent events illustrate, sloppy control and management procedures allowed the weapon to escape into the general population. Dead bodies, undue suffering, and social disorder were and are the results of these biological leakages. These are not conspiracies. These are facts.

There are people in power, “people with money,” whose goal to drastically reduce the earth’s human population is very much alive and active. These people will not enter the line, much less get to the front of the line to be the first to be eliminated to achieve their goal.

Enough said about the “root cause” of so much human misery, let’s get back to HIV. For many interest groups, it is advantageous financially to keep HIV active. We all know the financial advantages of an active virus, so there is no need to specify them here. What we need to emphasize is human compassion over self-centeredness and money.

Just be patient. The human population will naturally self-destruct much quicker than any of the other now-extinct life forms that have inhabited this planet. For now, let’s fight for a cure for HIV if one is not available, and if a cure for HIV is available, let’s demand that it be accessible to all people.

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Distorted Cultural Norms

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One of the cultural norms that is being promoted today can only lead to a proliferation of diseases and an increasing deterioration of the human gene. At one time it was fashionable to have human beings as one’s personal property (slaves). In the United States (which practiced the most animalistic, sadistic, and inhumane of this practice) it took a brutal war of suffering and death to bring what was considered fashionable and a source of self-esteem to an end.

Throughout history the majority of the earth’s peoples have been led this way and that way like a mindless horde by the self-proclaimed elites. This is true, and even more so today, even with the easy access to information that the worlds people have at their disposal. Led into all sorts of behaviors that distorts the nature of the cosmos by a tiny group of people who have a twisted mentality and garbled moral values is the nauseous state of those who have abandon their capacity to think for themselves.

Swept away by this trend and the current fad into the dense portals of no future, the lot is saturated within a boiling pot of no return which is they’re just fitting for being so easily influenced and led. Regard not the “SHE” and the “HE” of it but do as you deem fit. Make not a sound of protest as the flames of the burning are kindled for your head. The pale has brought untold calamity upon the peoples of the world and the earth’s ecosystem yet they’re malevolence has not reached its end.

A cultural norm may not be the standard of life but a means that the boisterous benumbed has of expressing themselves. The custom of the quagmire is only a tomb that has been open for those who are more than willing to enter within. Ominous is the purge of diseases that look upon the confused with much hunger for the devouring bugs of panic and terror have spoons, knives, and forks in anticipation for the banquet that is being prepared for them.

The buffet of the level-headed is common sense but common sense is past tense in the vocabulary of today’s world. The earth and its people are thoroughly polluted by so-called civilized whiteness that has made a mockery of everything in their zeal to feel superior. Everyone is everything and everyone is nothing, the new cultural norm of complete oblivion for everyone and everything.

The first-born is engulfed by a self-inflicted foolishness that renders them useless in bringing the world back to its proper order. Yet, all is not lost as the winds of change blows from here to there and those who “ARE” will utterly defeat those who are not. Stand up for what is right.

Hear me esteem one


Hear me and deliver the fond ones from the self-imposed clutches of a demented mind

Deliver their heads so that they may liberate themselves from themselves

The fond ones are floundering in paleness

Allowing themselves to become entangled within the mutation’s tentacles

Riding every whim of the absurd

Fascinated by the propaganda of the imposter

Scrabbling to be everything but themselves

The pretenders have created an illusion

The real has been camouflaged by their deceptions

The mirage has become a facet of everyday life

Nurse the heads of the fond ones so that they may mend themselves

Restore to health those who covet death

Heed my prayer esteem one and do this for your children

Curse those who look upon themselves

Reveal the obscenity as a profanity

Scourge the pallor with a deserved faintness

Instability in oneself has damaged the fond ones exceedingly

The entire cosmos is now clumsy and awkward

Mindsets away from its original form

Because of the fond one’s lust for the reprehensible

And are so willing to immerse themselves within pale idiocy

Listen to me esteem one

Pay attention to my prayer

And rescue your children from themselves