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The Kiss

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The Kiss. In the past, I did not have a problem with it. Now, I cringe when I see a kissing movie scene. This reaction is due to personal experience. It caused an eye condition that I have to contend with daily.

A milky substance blurs my vision and is most irritating because I have to wipe my eyes constantly. This eye condition is all my fault. I kissed someone whom I knew was ill in some way. Still, I did not know from what.

I use an excuse. As we were walking out the door, she suddenly turned. She gave me a firm kiss on the mouth. I was caught off guard, nevertheless I was extremely acquiescent to her burst of affection, or whatever it was. So much so that we relinquished and reestablished the kiss two or three times.

Within an hour my eyes felt irritated and were watery. Within three hours I was a walk-in at a local hospital. But, I discharged myself from having a full evaluation. I had dropped her off at a class she was taking and needed to rush to go pick her up.

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Unwisely, I did not follow up my hospital visit, hoping that whatever I was suffering from would go away. Which it has not.

Some time later I when to an eye clinic and was told that my eyes were not producing enough tears. I was prescribed tear droplets to fix the problem. I hoped that this would arrest my eye condition, which it has not.

I was ashamed to tell the doctor when and how my eye condition started. This has been another unwise move on my part. I have learned that many doctors do not take the patients’ self-diagnosis seriously.

I have tried other eye care products along with the tear therapy solutions, but they were to no avail. I have given up on eye clinics because all I get from them is a repeat performance and no cure.

I don’t know if she deliberately placed the ill kiss on me. I am unsure why she suddenly turned as she did to kiss me. But I am not angry with her, I am too busy wiping my eyes for that. I am angry with myself. I knew better than to kiss her without knowing what she was suffering from. Yet, I kissed her anyway.

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I am the recipient of a quick series of kisses. They have lasted a long time. There seems to be no end of those kisses in sight. This is why I cringe when I see kissing movie scenes. The romantic aspect of such scenes is done and gone.

Lips beware. Tongue confine yourself to tasting. Be careful because the mouth that breathes can produce the eyes that leak.

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Looking Up

Looking up is not hard to do unless you insist on looking down on yourself and your people. Your outlook on life is under your control.

If you let others influence how you feel about yourself, then you are affected by their ignorance. Do not allow them to change your attitude about your people.

Learn to listen to your inner self. Do not pay attention to what a foreign entity is showing and telling you about yourself. Your people will defend you. They will stand by you when the enemy you adore reveals their true nature and turns against you.

The grotesquely obese white pig is making a mockery of you. Is your self-esteem so faint? Do you need to go to the bottom of the lowest to feel that you have reached the top?

You take pride in reaching a supposed peak. Yet, it is actually just a mirage. This illusion was created due to a genetic mistake around six thousand years ago.

Shifting your perspective upwards is as simple as elevating your thought process. You foolishly try to bring everything and everyone down to a single level of reality. You should be more discerning. Instead, you become complicit in your own mental destruction by believing in the absurd.

A ghost has no power to do anything for you. What happens in your life is because you make it happen, whether it’s good or bad.

Those whom you seek validation from are not worthy of your consideration. You are the priority and will once again be the most important.

Those that have come from you are reaching the end of their life cycle. Free yourself from them and take control of your life again.

By focusing on yourself and your loved ones, you will find yourself in the place where you belong.

Free your mind from yourself and enjoy life.

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A Journey into A Mad Self-centered Persons Mind

A Journey. It sounds hard to believe. Certain malicious and self-centered elements exist within the United States of America. These elements are found both in the government and in corporate entities. They are at odds with the citizens of this nation and people around the world.

These troublesome individuals aim to diminish what they perceive as lesser beings into obedient, mindless puppets. Yet, the victory is not theirs. We will make them face the burdensome consequences. This will happen if we become aware of their surreptitious actions. We must also recognize their overt attempts to control us.

They divert our attention from confronting them by entertaining us and by causing unnecessary heartache and trouble.

We recognize these harmful individuals because they greet us daily. They pollute our food, water, land, and air. They genetically change us by constantly bombarding us with harmful light, sound, microwave, and radio frequencies.

These arrogant dog owners believe that people are too dumb. They think people can’t tell the difference between regular water and the dirty water flowing from their kitchen faucets.

The current world system is based on lies and supported by even more lies. How many lies can a system sustain before it collapses?

The fool and their warped ideas will soon be gone, and what comes after is better or worse. Whatever it is, the people of the world, its land, water, air, and animals desperately need a significant change.

We should urge governments and corporations to release cures for natural diseases. They also need to release cures for human-engineered diseases. These include viruses that they claim not to have. We should have stopped using tarmacs and tires decades ago.

Paper money and the banking system create greed and wars, but we should embrace equality and diversity.

The current global system is a creation of the misguided and the delusional. Fish should be capable of swimming without succumbing to death by human waste.

Cut down trees only when necessary because they give the air we need to breathe. We should focus on meaningful activities. There are many productive things we can do. We just need to set our minds to them. This is better than wasting time on fruitless pursuits.

Do you want to continue being carefree? Would you rather become a passionate sports fan who enjoys a good beer? Don’t you want to break free from the mundane and seek new experiences?

Is it a database hacker who has nothing better to do than to tamper with reasonably well-working software? Or is it a force of marvelous destruction and extraordinary change? The universe awaits your answer.

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The Rapture Doctrine: Caught Away in an Instant of Cowering Scaredy-cat

The Rapture Doctrine: Caught Away in an Instant of Cowering Scaredy-cat.

The Rapture doctrine is believed to have originated from a mentally ill woman. Her name was Margaret McDonnell. She was born in 1815 in Port Glasgow, Scotland, and died in 1840.

During this time, many preachers in Scotland believed in supernatural gifts. They thought these gifts, like the Holy Spirit, are used to tackle the world’s problems.

Isabella and Mary Campbell, while at the parish of Roseate, popularized these gifts of the Holy Spirit. These gifts include speaking in tongues. They were seen as evidence of a person’s legitimacy in possessing supernatural gifts.

Both preachers and lay people were fascinated by these charismatic experiences, although some individuals condemned them as being demonic.

Nevertheless, the Rapture doctrine and speaking in tongues spread from Scotland to the wider Christian world. They have since become firmly entrenched in religious doctrine and teaching.

In the year 1830, people believed that Margaret McDonnell was miraculously cured of her mental illness. Her brother James Campbell performed the healing.

Criticism of rapture believers overlooks a crucial fact. Each individual is the agent of their own life and belief systems. I used to trust the nonsense I was taught before I started thinking for myself.

We hear or read about the horrific events predicted in the Bible’s book of Revelation about the supposed end times. Our fight or flight instinct naturally takes over. It often overrides critical thinking and rationality.

The self-deluded warrior wants to stand and engage in a holy battle with Yeshua. Meanwhile, the less spirited ones want to run and hide in the heat of battle.

The evidence that the rapture is a myth is clear. The children of God were not taken to safety when the Assyrians destroyed the Northern Kingdom of Israel. They also were not taken when the Babylonians crushed the Southern Kingdom of Judah and destroyed its temple.

There was also no rapture during the hundreds of years that the dispersed people were viciously persecuted in Western Europe. This persecution culminated with the extreme measures of racial purification conducted by the Nazis during World War Two. The purging program under Stalin occurred during and after that conflict.

Christians often seem self-satisfied when they talk about being taken up to meet their imaginary deity in the air. This attitude is visible in their smug expressions. The condescending gleam in their eyes can be insulting and arrogant.

Everyone wants to believe that they are special in the eyes of a fictional God. Many proclaim themselves as the chosen people with privileged status.

Some who consider themselves chosen by God feel entitled to take others’ land. They claim it as their own. Others believe that their well-being is of greater concern to this imaginary God than other people’s.

Peace of mind is being able to walk down the streets in the United States without being shot and killed by the police. Only the farfetched believe that they will be blessed with a white garment from a fictitious God.

Many Christians believe that the meek will inherit the earth. The meek referred to in this Bible verse are not deserters. They do not cower behind a cloud while others fight and die for them. They are those who are humble in spirit and not lacking in courage.

Regardless of the above arguments, the main reason not to believe in a Rapture is simple. This character called Jesus only exists within the fables of the Bible.

There is an all-consciousness being. Yet, this Jesus is a figment of a lying Jewish/Catholic imagination. It was made up to control the minds of people and justify their criminal acts against them.

People earnestly waiting to be caught up to meet the Lord in the air will live and die. They will die and live perpetually. Their faith and hopes will never be realized.

For thoughtlessness’ sake, pretend that the second coming of the Lord is valid. Imagine the catching away of the saints is also valid. What does that have to do with so-called Christians?

The words in their Bible suggest that Jesus is only concerned with the Ashkenazi and doesn’t care about anyone else. Having hope and faith is great. But, misplaced feelings are like spending your hard-earned money on lottery tickets every day.

Near-death experiences, alien abductions, familiar spirits, and channeling are examples of phenomena that intrigue many people. Ghostly encounters and episodes encountered during sleep paralysis also belong to this category. These phenomena can all be grouped under the paranormal and the paranoid.

The fear of death creates believers of all persuasions. Christian believers want to escape death, not the great tribulation. Without collapse and demise as part of life, religions would not have a place in the human mind. They need this space to exist.

Being caught up in a puff of nasal spray is hopeful. It is the expectation of meeting the invisible lord in the air. This is a way to escape physical death. Wake up, sky-gazers, for your redemption does not even come.

The celestial joke is on all of us mortals. We comfort ourselves with some vague hereafter. We live in imaginary places called either heaven or hell. Human Deoxyribonucleic acid has physical death grafted into it.

The woman’s ovary produces four hundred thousand follicles. These follicles are inactive until fertilization occurs. At the instant a woman’s follicles become fertilized, they develop into an embryo.

So, the story goes, not one of the make-believe apostles of this fabricated Christ was raptured. Furthermore, not one of them died a natural death.

People are digging holes in the ground. They are storing food and water for the anticipated horrors to come. They do this because they believe in the fictional tales of their Bible.

The so-called elites are moving the nations of the world towards a third World War. They are creating their forms of rapture. They hope these will keep them safe. Meanwhile, the less privileged disintegrate into vapors.

The wages of faith do not gain anything. So, I will have faith that the police will not shoot me as he takes out his gun, aims, and pulls the trigger.

Joan of Arc was a woman of tremendous courage and faith. But that fellow Jesus did not see fit to catch her away. Fiery torches were placed at her feet.

There is no clay fragment, or any other type of writing material, written in any script, which corroborates biblical foolishness.

Nonetheless, everyone must use what they have to make it through the day and give them hope for the next.

Airflow away, you cloud gazers.

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How Do I Feel?

How do I feel? Not lonely. Not empty. Maybe I feel shallow. According to Webster dictionary, one definition of shallow is “lacking in depth or solidity, or a lack of emotions or character”

Something is missing in my life, and I am missing out.

Feeling empty is a better term. Empty is defined as “containing nothing, not occupied or inhabited.” It means lacking reality, substance, meaning, or value: hollow. It is also destitute of effort or force, devoid of sense: Foolish.” Also, according to Webster dictionary.

I can’t describe how I am feeling because I am feeling nothing. But how can you feel nothing when the feeling of nothing is a feeling?

I see her in my make-believe. I feel comfort. Because I can’t talk with or touch her, I feel lonely. There is no compromise or a way to transform fantasy into reality. The void is fixed, and the flower will not bloom.

How do I feel about my feeling when my thoughts about my feelings are as vague as my feelings. Is there a way to energize myself when I am unclear of what is lacking?

I make love to her within the vacuum of my conscious where all matter is removed. So, she can’t experience the touch of my hands upon her. She can’t hear the sound of my voice telling her that I love her.

I feel like crying but that is a waste of tears for one as myself. On not deserving of sorrow and compassion, much less the luxury of self-pity.

So, what do I do when I have no idea what to do? And where do I go when all directions lead me back to myself.

According to my definition, I am death waiting for burial and a corpse with an overdue appointment to rot. But that is the lowest spectrum of my definition of myself. But a higher level of my self-evaluation has promise and accomplishment.

The seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, and years do not care about my feelings. They are indifferent to whether my life is empty or filled.

I can hold and kiss her until our lips fall apart in my make-believe world of her. Yet it means nothing to the next tick on the clock or the next to last beat of my heart.

So, how do I describe how I am feeling when my feelings are without significance to anyone? What do my feelings matter when she is only a figment of my isolation?

I have no way to explain how I am feeling, but what does it matter, and who cares?

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