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Living While Dying: A Story of Bad Decision Making

Living While Dying: A Story of Bad Decision Making: There is a person who has consistently made bad life-choices. He made poor financial decisions because he believed he did not have long to live.

He does not remember when. At some point, he got the idea that he was not going to live long. Yet, even with this idea in mind he kept striving to better his life. Attending college and obtaining a Bachelor of Science degree in Computer Information Systems and a Diploma in Computer Science.

Even so, the idea of his impending death was always a lingering thought. He didn’t live in fear of his impending death. Nevertheless, he was caught up in two divergent worlds: the world of continued life and the world of presently dying.

He did not try to rationalize the two divergent thoughts that controlled his life. He lived with them. Having only one experience, that of living, he had no reference point to measure the two. No way of knowing which one is better.

Having two contradictory beliefs at the same time is often called Cognitive dissonance. This can lead to unpleasant emotional results. It can also cause behavioral problems, assuming that there is a difference between emotions and behavior.

Striving for your betterment while feeling that your efforts are wasted is challenging. He felt this way because he believed he did not have much longer to live. It is a push and stop mental gymnastics. This is a form of mental-agility allowing you to move between different ideas without much anxiety.

But the cost is often bad life-choices and financial decisions making. At least, that is what this person can say about himself.

No estimations. No moment’s notice. Only the anticipation that the end of life is near. One foot on the acceleration. One foot on the break. Both pressing down hard. A life ruled by a persistent idea. A manner of living that brings no contentment.

And the cost. Mistakes that can’t be erased. Achievements that somewhat balances the scale. A life lived without feeling real joy. A testimony that is not worth being written. A strength that overpowered a persistent belief.

And so, it is. And it will. And all in between.

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Breaking Free from Lethal Companions of the Mind

RecentPosts / Herbert Hilliard

Breaking Free from Lethal Companions of the Mind. Many people hold on to debilitating and lethal companions. These include cigarettes and other forms of tobacco, alcohol, triple x movies, imaginary gods and saviors, and drugs. The list goes on.

These are the only partners that ease their loneliness and feelings of isolation. Many people feel uncomfortable around other people, thus resorting to crippling solutions to fill that emotional need for belonging.

They know that they are harming themselves physically and psychologically. They may even want to change their behavior. Yet, their debilitating and even lethal companions have caged their minds.

It is sad to want to stop harming yourself but can’t muster the inner strength to do so. It is not that you are weak. You just can’t or have not found a positive and constructive filler. Such a filler would replace the debilitating companions that hold a stronghold on your need. These companions are even lethal as you try to fill the emptiness you feel.

Debilitating and even lethal companions come in many forms. The subtle and controlling of which are thoughts. The thought that you need someone or something to feel fulfilled. The thought that you can’t do without a certain habit. The thought that a debilitating and even lethal companion help you in some way.

You feel the effects of your debilitating and even lethal companions and know that everything about it is a fake. It is a companion that brings slow death. It causes premature wrinkles. It leads to damaged gums and teeth. It creates an unwillingness to connect with other people.

Debilitating and even lethal companions act in disguise. They claim to add value to time, peace of mind, and physical fulfillment. All the while birds are singing; buffaloes are roaming as life passes you by.

So, what is the solution to free yourself of your debilitating and even lethal companions. That depends on the individual. Each person must form their own path to true companionship. The aim is finding something wholesome and nourishing to fill the time.

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We uplift each other by maintaining positivism in our conversations and life perspectives. Healing starts within us and radiates to our entire community. We also dedicate ourselves to protecting others by diligently practicing safe contact techniques and behaviors to contain our illness.

Our forums serve as free and confidential platforms for communication, where every opinion matters. Respect for others is inherent in our community. We trust that everyone will behave respectfully, so there’s no need to stress it.

This online community was founded by an individual battling this illness. They have mastered the art of proactive living despite the condition. The journey has been challenging, with episodes of depression still emerging, yet life must be embraced as it comes. The sense of companionship can foster psychological stability for those affected. It does not undermine their wish that such an illness would not afflict anyone.

Join our supportive community and become an active participant. Help us foster empathy. Shift the focus from mere treatment to developing a cure. Be a source of encouragement for others. Register today and be part of the team. There are no membership or subscription fees. Our confidential forums are open for you. You can start any discussion in a safe, respectful environment.

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The Bestowing-life family: Overcoming HIV-related anxiety isn’t just a personal victory; it’s a communal triumph. By developing empowerment skills through self-advocacy, we reclaim control over our own lives. We also inspire others to do the same.

It’s about standing out and being the difference where it counts. Each act of courage, no matter how small, contributes to a larger narrative of strength and resilience. Let’s band together to transform fear into action and uncertainty into confidence!

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Our Shopping Guide

RecentPosts / Herbert Hilliard

For the Best Online Shopping Experience: A Guide to Top Merchants

Our Shopping Guide. Online shopping has revolutionized the way we buy everything from books to cosmetics. It’s all about convenience, variety, and finding the best deals. But with so many options out there, how do you make sure you’re getting the best online shopping experience possible? Here’s a guide to help you navigate the world of online merchants and make the most of your purchases.

Books Galore for the Avid Reader

For book lovers, nothing beats the smell of a new book. But if you can’t make it to the bookstore, online merchants offer an endless library at your fingertips. From the latest bestsellers to rare finds, these top merchants give a seamless experience for readers. Look for sites with user-friendly interfaces, comprehensive reviews, and good return policies.

Fashion Finds for the Style Savvy

Clothing is one of the most popular online shopping categories. The best online merchants offer a wide range. They give detailed size guides and flexible return policies. Keep an eye out for exclusive online sales and free shipping offers to get the most bang for your buck.

Beauty Buys for the Cosmetics Connoisseur

Cosmetics shopping can be tricky, but the top online merchants have made it easier than ever. They give detailed product descriptions. You can also find customer reviews. Often times, virtual try-on features are available. With these features, you can shop for makeup and skincare with confidence. Don’t forget to sign up for newsletters to get updates on new arrivals and special promotions.

Everything Else You Want and Need

The beauty of online shopping is that you can find almost anything with a few clicks. From electronics to home goods, the best merchants offer high-quality images. They offer comprehensive specs and customer reviews. This helps you make informed decisions. Plus, with options for price comparisons and alerts on price drops, you’re always sure to get the best deal.

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Our affiliate merchants are carefully chosen to give you the best shopping experience. They are known for their reliability, customer service, and quality products. By shopping through our affiliates, you get access to a curated collection of goods. You also support a network of merchants committed to excellence.

In conclusion, for the best online shopping experience, it’s important to choose merchants that align with your needs and preferences. Look for merchants that offer a great variety. They should have competitive prices and excellent customer service. The merchant affiliates of the BestowingLife family have it all. Happy shopping!

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The Kiss

RecentPosts / Herbert Hilliard

The Kiss. In the past, I did not have a problem with it. Now, I cringe when I see a kissing movie scene. This reaction is due to personal experience. It caused an eye condition that I have to contend with daily.

A milky substance blurs my vision and is most irritating because I have to wipe my eyes constantly. This eye condition is all my fault. I kissed someone whom I knew was ill in some way. Still, I did not know from what.

I use an excuse. As we were walking out the door, she suddenly turned. She gave me a firm kiss on the mouth. I was caught off guard, nevertheless I was extremely acquiescent to her burst of affection, or whatever it was. So much so that we relinquished and reestablished the kiss two or three times.

Within an hour my eyes felt irritated and were watery. Within three hours I was a walk-in at a local hospital. But, I discharged myself from having a full evaluation. I had dropped her off at a class she was taking and needed to rush to go pick her up.

Unwisely, I did not follow up my hospital visit, hoping that whatever I was suffering from would go away. Which it has not.

Some time later I when to an eye clinic and was told that my eyes were not producing enough tears. I was prescribed tear droplets to fix the problem. I hoped that this would arrest my eye condition, which it has not.

I was ashamed to tell the doctor when and how my eye condition started. This has been another unwise move on my part. I have learned that many doctors do not take the patients’ self-diagnosis seriously.

I have tried other eye care products along with the tear therapy solutions, but they were to no avail. I have given up on eye clinics because all I get from them is a repeat performance and no cure.

I don’t know if she deliberately placed the ill kiss on me. I am unsure why she suddenly turned as she did to kiss me. But I am not angry with her, I am too busy wiping my eyes for that. I am angry with myself. I knew better than to kiss her without knowing what she was suffering from. Yet, I kissed her anyway.

I am the recipient of a quick series of kisses. They have lasted a long time. There seems to be no end of those kisses in sight. This is why I cringe when I see kissing movie scenes. The romantic aspect of such scenes is done and gone.

Lips beware. Tongue confine yourself to tasting. Be careful because the mouth that breathes can produce the eyes that leak.

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